cant let go

Life is so unfair at times, take the other day when our neighbour dropped dead from a blood clot on the brain he was only 50 and was a health and safety course for Eircom. He was an englishman married to an irish lady and the funeral was so sad with several family members giving eulogies, he loved living at the end of our boreen...there are only five houses in one and a half miles, he loved nature and looking after his garden and we dont know what will happen now cause they didnt have any children and Marie is staying with her sister.
We are off to Sophia christening on Sunday and the weatherman says it will be a lovely day...it wants to be as there is a BBQ in the afternoon and evening, really looking forward to it.
Steven would have been 35 today and I really felt empty this morning, I still miss him like crazy but I know he will be with us on Sunday.

At last we have finished the front room, it does look a lot better and feels so fresh and clean, the only trouble being it makes the rest of the cottage dingy, so it looks like we wont be putting the paintbrushes away yet. The trouble is while this weather is so lovely, I want to do the garden and what with looking after 28 dogs as well and the usual washing, cleaning, and other mundane things like cooking there doesnt seem to be enough hours in a day...if I could have my own private chef it would be heaven, I have always told my hubby that I should have been a millionairs plaything!!! Anyway tonight I am writing this while the colour on my hair takes hold, thats another thing...I seem to be going a bit grey so I suppose age is catching up with me. Sophia will be christened on the 25th. which will be a bit of craic and plenty of people there as her Mammy has 8 brothers and sisters just hope the weather stays fine as there is a BBQ afterwards.

I have spent the last two weeks trying to sort out my sons accounts and at long last I have reached the end..I am well and truly knackered but it is such a stupid thing to say but I feel really achieved because I have actually made sense of them,worked out the v.a.t. and have final figures to give to the accountant. I used to love figure work and accounts but I havent done them in so long that so much has changed it took me longer than I imagined...and my son did say that he would never leave them so long in future...not if I have anything to do with it!!! Baby Sophia, mum and dad stayed a couple of days with us and everything was lovely, she is a little dote and it is such a shame they live so far away.