I havent been at my blog for ages now or so it seems although I have been reading everyone elses. I have been so fed up and frustrated with myself that I dont want to write anything down, cause it just sounds as though I am wingeing and just cant get it together. Although life is very good to me and I should just get on with it, I am still finding it sooooooooo difficult getting over losing Steve and at least once a day have a good bawl...I've even got wet eyes while I am typing this and I just wonder how long does this bloody grieving take!! I have a beautiful new grand daughter and a wonderful husband and son, a lovely cottage in a beautiful part of Ireland, 23 lovely and devoted dogs.....so you see why I should be happy with my lot BUT I AM NOT, it seems so selfish but I cant help myself.