well, Christmas has been and gone and it must be the first time I have said that. It has been the first one since Steve passed away and I know it is going to be the first of many, but I really must try and move on. It will be almost a year now since he left, and although I know he is in a much better place....without that b....wheelchair I cannot get it into my thick head, that is why writing my daily thoughts might help, I really do get some relief from writing things down as I always seem to well up when I talk about what should have been. I can't seem to talk to my husband or my other son without sounding as if I am whinging...that is the feeling I get...although I may be wrong. I know life goes on and I really am trying to get on but it is so hard. I will have to see what happens tomorrow.
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katie1159
- 2007-12-30 @ 23:25:28
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sameold
- 2008-03-19 @ 22:50:17
Hi again,
Just got to they end of your post's and I have now realised it was your son..I am a very sorry to hear about his passing, but honestly please believe me, I know that he is alway's around you and he walks with you along path you go.
His wheelchair is not there anymore and he walk's with you along, the long green grass..Does that make any sense to you and he say's try to get it cut.
I am sorry X-
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freedreams
- 2008-03-25 @ 23:24:18
Hi Emma,
just to say thanks a million for your words and thoughts, I write my blog because people think I should be getting over Steves passing, but I am finding it difficult cause you never think your children will go first. I can at least express my feelings on paper and dont have to feel guilty for the way I feel.
Thanks again
Brenda
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Hello
Your post moved me - a year is no time at all - I've learnt to take each day as it comes and never to worry about tomorrow or what people think I should now be doing.
Yes life does go on but there are no rules to grief - no time scale to live by & it is hard - very hard.
I write too so as not to bother relatives who all think I should have 'moved on' by now but it doesn't work like that.
I hope you don't mind me replying but I felt I wanted to.
Don't beat yourself up or feel guilty for your feelings & take care of you.
xxx